Chapter 4

They took Lila back for surgery at 7:12 a.m.
I stood in the pre-op bay, kissing her forehead over and over, while the anesthesiologist held the mask with the strawberry-scented gas. She was scared. Her little hand gripped mine so tight her knuckles turned white.
“Sing to me,” she whispered.
So I sang. The lullaby my mom used to sing to me when I was little. Off-key, shaky, my throat tight with tears. But she smiled. Her eyes fluttered closed. And then she was gone, wheeled through the double doors, the anesthesiologist giving me a reassuring nod over his shoulder.
The doors swung shut.
I collapsed onto the waiting room chair. Buried my face in my hands. And cried. For the first time since the party. Big, heaving, ugly sobs that shook my whole body.
Mia sat next to me. Wrapped an arm around my shoulders. Let me cry into her shirt. Didn’t say a word. Just held me.
It took almost two hours.
The longest two hours of my life. I paced the waiting room. Drank three bad vending machine coffees. Re-read Aunt Linda’s text about the footage twelve times. Ignored three more calls from Dad. Two from Olivia.
Finally, the double doors opened.
Dr. Hale walked out. Her mask was pulled down under her chin. She was smiling.
“Perfect,” she said. Held up two fingers. “We got it closed on the first try. No pins needed. Sedation wore off smooth. She’s in recovery now, asking for you.”
I sobbed again. This time in relief. Threw my arms around the doctor, who laughed and hugged me back.
They let me go back ten minutes later.
Lila was in a hospital bed, propped up on pillows. Her left arm was encased in a bright pink fiberglass cast, covered in glitter the nurses had let her sprinkle on before it dried. She was groggy, sipping apple juice through a straw, but her eyes lit up the second she saw me.
“Mommy,” she said. Held out her good arm.
I sat on the edge of the bed. Held her. Kissed her face all over. Told her how brave she was. How proud I was.
Two uniformed police officers showed up an hour later.
Officers Ruiz and Bennett. Middle-aged, kind, with kids of their own, they said. They’d gotten my report from the night before. Wanted to take our statements.
I told them everything. From the playground fall two weeks prior, to the party, to Olivia ripping off the brace, to Dad stopping me from calling 911, to Lila’s confession on the patio. I showed them the photos Mia had taken of the bruises the night before, before the cast went on.
Then they talked to Lila.
A child life specialist sat with us, holding a doll with a cast on its arm, asking gentle, simple questions. Lila was quiet at first. Shy. But then she showed them her pink cast. And in her wobbly, six-year-old way, she told them about Aunt Olivia tripping her. About the bribe to hold the baby. About the brace being ripped off. About how much it hurt.
The officers’ faces got harder and harder the more she talked.
When we were done, Officer Ruiz leaned forward.
“We’re gonna get copies of the medical records,” she said. “Your friend’s statement, too. And when you get that security footage, you bring it straight to us. This is cut and dry, in my opinion. We’ll forward the file to the DA’s office by end of week.”
She paused. Glanced at Lila, now dozing again.
“Your sister did a bad thing,” she said. “A really bad thing. And we’re gonna make sure it doesn’t happen again.”
They left.
Mia had gone home to shower and change, promising to be back with dinner. I was alone with Lila, dozing in the quiet of the room, when the door creaked open.
Dad.
He stood in the doorway, awkward, holding a giant teddy bear almost as big as Lila, and a crumpled paper bag from the bakery down the street. His shirt was wrinkled. He looked like he hadn’t slept.
“Can I come in?” he said.
I hesitated. Glanced at Lila, still asleep. Then nodded.
He stepped inside. Closed the door soft behind him. Stood by the bed, staring at her cast. At her peaceful face.
“How is she?” he said. Quiet.
“Fine,” I said. “No pins. Just a cast for six weeks.”
He nodded. Swallowed hard.
“I’m sorry,” he said. For the second time in twelve hours. “About last night. I shouldn’t have grabbed your wrist. Shouldn’t have said those things. I was just… it was my party. I wanted everything to be perfect.”
I stared at him.
“Perfect?” I said. My voice rose. I didn’t care if I woke Lila. “You wanted perfect so bad you let your daughter assault my daughter? You called a six-year-old a liar to her face? You threatened to throw me out of the family for getting her help? That’s your idea of perfect?”
He flinched.
“Olivia is stressed,” he said. Same old excuse. Same old blind eye. “The new baby, no sleep, Mark working all the time… she’s not herself. She didn’t mean to hurt Lila. It was a mistake.”
“A mistake?” I stood up. The chair scraped loud. “She tripped her on purpose, Dad. She bribed her to stay quiet. She ripped that brace off on purpose. She stood there and screamed that she was faking while she cried in pain. That’s not a mistake. That’s cruelty. That’s abuse.”
I stepped closer.
“And you,” I said. “You stood there and let her. You took her side. You always take her side. Ever since we were kids. If she lied, I was the problem. If she stole my things, I was too possessive. If she hit me, I must’ve provoked her. Do you have any idea what that did to me? What it’s doing to her now?”
Tears burned my eyes.
“Lila needed you last night,” I said. “Her grandpa. The man she adores. And you chose Olivia. Again.”
He looked away. His jaw worked. For a second I thought he’d argue. Thought he’d say I was overreacting again.
Then his shoulders slumped.
“I don’t know how to be anything else with her,” he said. Voice small. “She was always the difficult one. The loud one. The one who’d scream for hours if she didn’t get exactly what she wanted. Your mom used to say if we just gave in, it’d be easier. She’d grow out of it. I thought if I loved her enough, gave her enough, defended her enough… eventually she’d be okay.”
He looked at Lila. His eyes glistened.
“I was wrong,” he said.
He turned to go. Paused at the door.
“I’ll give you space,” he said. “But I want to make this right. If you’ll let me.”
He left.
I stood there for a long time after the door clicked shut.
I wanted to believe him. I really did.
But I’d heard this before. A hundred times growing up. I’m sorry. I’ll do better. Next time I’ll be fair.
And every single time, the second Olivia threw a tantrum, he folded.
Actions, I thought. Not words.
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He’d have to prove it.
If he even could.