Chapter 3

I sat on the curb outside the nursing home, Lila next to me, and read Evelyn’s letter from start to finish.
My hands shook the whole time.
Dear Ethan,
If you’re reading this, I’m gone.
Don’t be sad. I had 71 good years, and the last 18 of them were the happiest of my life.
I knew why you married me.
I saw the debt papers fall out of your wallet the second week we knew each other.
Heard you on the phone with the hospital one night, crying in the garage so I wouldn’t hear.
I didn’t care.
Arthur, my husband, died 12 years ago. We never had kids.
That big yellow house was too quiet for too long.
Then you showed up.
Grumpy, tired, wearing boots with holes in the soles, and suddenly the house felt like a home again.
You fixed the broken step I’d been tripping over for five years.
You laughed at my terrible jokes even when they weren’t funny.
You held my hand when my heart hurt bad and I thought I wouldn’t make it through the night.
I didn’t marry you because I was lonely, Ethan.
I married you because I saw the good in you.
The part you try so hard to hide from everyone.
The part that would do anything for the people he loves.
I paid off your mom’s bills.
Don’t argue with me. It was my money, and I got to spend it how I wanted.
There’s more in the box.
Things I’ve been saving for you.
You just have to be brave enough to take them.
And one more thing.
Lila is a good girl. She’s just angry because she lost the only mom she ever really had.
Don’t shut her out.
She needs you.
And I think you need her too.
Love always,
Evelyn
I folded the letter up, put it back in the box, and cried harder than I had since I was a kid.
Lila didn’t say anything.
Just sat there next to me, quiet, until I could breathe again.
Then she reached into the box and pulled out a small brass key on a leather tag.
Engraved on the tag: For the place you said you’d take your mom when things got better.
I frowned.
I’d said that once.
Three months into the marriage.
We’d been sitting on the porch swing, drinking iced tea, and I’d had too much to drink.
I’d rambled about a small cottage on Clear Lake I’d seen when I was a kid.
Said if I ever had money, that’s where I’d take my mom.
Where she could breathe fresh air, watch the sunset, not be stuck in a hospital room.
I’d forgotten I’d ever said it.
Evelyn hadn’t.
“Clear Lake is an hour from here,” Lila said, standing up. “We should go.”
I hesitated.
“Why are you helping me? You hated me an hour ago.”
She kicked a rock down the street, wouldn’t look at me.
“Evelyn loved you. That means something. And… I read the part of the letter about me. She said I was being a stubborn idiot and to give you a chance. She was usually right about people.”
We drove to Clear Lake in her car.
My truck felt too small, too full of old lies.
The cottage was at the end of a dirt road, tucked between pine trees, with a porch that looked out over the water.
A real estate sign was stuck in the front yard.
SOLD.
I walked up the steps, put the key in the lock.
It turned.
The inside smelled like pine and lemon polish.
Furniture was already there.
A quilt draped over the couch.
Mugs in the cabinet, exactly the kind my mom liked.
On the kitchen table, another envelope with my name on it.
I opened it.
A deed.
The cottage was in my name.
Dated six months prior.
Evelyn had bought it for me.
For the dream I’d told her once, drunk, thinking she’d forget.
Lila was looking at the photo album on the bookshelf.
She called my name, voice quiet.
I walked over.
The album was full of photos of me.
Me sleeping on the couch after a long day of work.
Me covered in dirt, fixing the fence.
Me laughing so hard I was snorting, at some stupid joke she’d told.
Me holding her hand in the hospital, the week before she died.
I didn’t even know she had a camera.
“She took these when you weren’t looking,” Lila said, running her finger over a photo of me and Evelyn sitting on the porch swing. “She told me once you were the son she and Arthur never got to have. That she’d waited her whole life for someone like you.”
I leaned against the wall, the room spinning.
I’d come into Evelyn’s life to take everything from her.
And she’d given me everything I’d ever wanted anyway.
Without asking for anything in return.
Lila closed the album, looked at me, her eyes wet.
“I’m sorry I called you a gold digger. I didn’t know.”
I shook my head.
“You had every right to. I was exactly what you thought I was. For a long time.”
She smiled a little.
“Evelyn said you’d say that. She also said you’d spend the rest of your life trying to make it up to her. And that’s exactly what you’re going to do, right?”
I looked out the window at the lake, the sun glinting off the water.
Thought of my mom, healthy, sitting on that porch.
May you like
Thought of Evelyn, watching me from somewhere, that soft smile on her face.
“Yeah,” I said. “I am.”