Chapter 5

The nightmares started a week after Grandma was arrested.
Bao would wake up screaming, his whole body shaking, sweat soaking his pajamas. He’d yell “No! Don’t touch me! Monster go away!” and he’d fight me when I tried to hold him, like he thought I was her.
It took me twenty minutes, sometimes half an hour, to calm him down. To remind him he was safe. That Grandma was gone. That she could never hurt him again.
I took him back to Dr. Minh. She referred us to a child psychologist, Dr. Han.
Dr. Han was a small, soft-spoken woman with gray hair and a smile that made you feel like everything would be okay. She sat on the floor with Bao for an hour, playing with dolls, letting him talk at his own pace.
At the end of the session, she pulled me aside.
“He’s got trauma,” she said, gentle. “Nothing we can’t work through, but it’ll take time. He feels responsible. He thinks if he’d been ‘good enough,’ none of this would have happened. He thinks he caused the fight between you and his father.”
My throat tightened. “How do I fix that?”
“Reassurance,” she said. “Constant. Every day. Tell him he’s loved. Tell him none of this was his fault. And… it would help if his father was part of this. Consistently. Not just gifts left on the doorstep. Kids need to see their parents working together, even when things are hard. It makes them feel safe.”
I nodded. But I didn’t know if I could do it.
Every time I thought of my husband, I heard his voice again. I have the papers to prove he’s not even yours.
I’d spent two years being strong. Two years being everything to Bao. I didn’t know if I had it in me to let him back in. To risk getting hurt again.
That night, I got a call from Officer Tran.
“Bad news,” he said. “Her lawyer filed for bail. She’s got a sister who’s willing to put up the house as collateral. The judge is leaning toward granting it. House arrest, ankle monitor, no contact with you or Bao. But… she’ll be out.”
My blood ran cold.
“She can’t come near us?” I said.
“Order says no contact, direct or indirect. No coming within five hundred meters of your house, Bao’s school, your hospital. If she breaks it, she goes straight back to jail, no bail.”
“But what if she does it anyway?” I whispered. “What if she comes for him?”
Officer Tran was quiet for a second.
“Then we arrest her,” he said. “But I won’t lie to you. These things aren’t perfect. You need to be careful. And… if I were you? I’d stop trying to do this alone.”
He hung up.
I sat on the couch, staring at the phone.
I couldn’t keep doing this by myself.
I worked twelve-hour shifts. I had to sleep sometimes. I couldn’t watch Bao every single second of every day. If she got out… if she really was that determined to take him…
I needed help.
And there was only one person who loved Bao as much as I did. Who would die before he let anyone hurt him.
I picked up my phone. I found my husband’s number. I stared at it for a long time.
Then I typed: Can you come over tomorrow? We need to talk.
He wrote back in ten seconds. I’ll be there at six. Whatever you need.
The next day, I picked Bao up from school early. I told him Daddy was coming over to talk.
He got very quiet. Then he nodded. “Okay.”
My husband showed up at five minutes to six. He was wearing clean jeans and a plain t-shirt. His hair was cut. He looked thinner than he had a week before. Tired.
He stood in the doorway, like he was scared to come in.
“Hi,” he said.
“Hi,” I said. I stepped aside. “Come in.”
He walked into the living room. He stopped when he saw Bao. His face softened.
“Hey, buddy,” he said.
Bao looked at him. Then he held out the half-built Lego set.
“Can you help me finish the rocket?” he asked.
My husband’s eyes got shiny. He nodded. He sat down on the floor next to Bao, and for the next hour, they didn’t say much. They just put bricks together. The rocket took shape. Tall. Pointy. With little windows.
When it was done, Bao held it up. “It’s gonna go to the moon,” he said.
“It’s the best rocket I’ve ever seen,” my husband said. He meant it.
Bao smiled. A real one. The first one I’d seen in weeks.
I sent Bao to his room to play after that. Then I sat down across from my husband at the kitchen table.
I told him about the nightmares. About Dr. Han. About the bail hearing. About how scared I was that she’d get out and come for Bao.
He listened. He didn’t interrupt. He just sat there, his jaw tight, his hands clenched on the table.
When I was done, he leaned forward.
“I’m not asking you to forgive me,” he said. “I’m not asking you to take me back. Not yet. Not until I earn it. But I am asking you to let me be his dad. Let me be here. I can drop him off at school. I can pick him up. I can stay with him when you work nights. I can sleep on the couch if you want. I don’t care. I just want to make sure no one ever hurts him again.”
He reached into his pocket. He pulled out a stack of papers.
“I went to the bank,” he said. “I closed the account she had access to. All the money I saved in Korea is in a new account. Both our names. For Bao. For the house we were supposed to buy. I also gave the prosecutor every text, every email, every call log I have. Everything she sent me. Everything she said. I’m testifying against her. Whatever they need.”
He pushed the papers across the table.
“I’m on your side,” he said. “From now on. No more lies. No more secrets. Whatever you need. Whenever you need it. I’m here.”
I looked at the papers. Then I looked at him.
I didn’t trust him. Not yet. Maybe not for a long time.
But I believed him.
For the first time in two years, I believed him.
“Okay,” I said.
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He let out a breath he’d been holding.
“Okay,” he said.